I'm So Sorry!!!

I haven't blogged since September, I know!!!

But there really hasn't been much to blog about...

Between 2 AP classes, practices/preformances 3-4 nights a week, musical practice, and worship band practice, I've been a little busy.

AAAAND I'm having to re-write this because my laptop enjoys re-placing the pointer and deleting things I don't want to delete.
Thank you, Dell Laptops.

So, I think it goes without saying that we haven't been to church in a while. As in, we haven't physically walked on a church campus in about a month. Is it bad that I might be giving up?

It may just be the season.
It's probably just the season.
When we did have a church, we weren't there a lot during marching season anyways.

It's not like we've been anti-Jesus. Nope. Love Jesus. It's just that competitions (if you've even been to a band competition, you'll understand)... well, they can go pretty late.


as in, we get home at 1 late.

But we're going to see my voice teacher lead worship at her church this week, which is, awesomely, also my choir director's church!!!

I'm excited!!

             -SarahCate

Weddings and the cute

Went to a wedding tonight. GAH they were so cute!!
Anyhoo, going to the church across the street tomorrow.
Like, seriously.

It's right across the street.

I can walk there.
In about two minutes.
FLAT.

Yep.

Should be good.

Lazy Church Day!!

Due to the impending storm off the coast of my state, We are staying home today.

Online church!!

The storm + we're all really tired = Staying home!!

YAY!!



     -SarahCate

Mid-Week Thoughts

So the new youth pastor is posting pics of the renovations that are going on.

Yay.

It feels weird. I almost feel like I can never go back now, because it will be so different from what I knew.

I might try going to a new youth group tomorrow night, but I start school tomorrow, so we shall see how I'm doing.

On top of all this, my grandpa's been in the hospital all week and other family storms have been going on as well.

So, if you end up reading this, pray for my family. And for me. Pray that we find the right church, and soon. I'm sick of not having a home.


                       Even in my dreams I am restless, looking for You.
                                                                                                 (Switchfoot)

                              -SarahCate

Another Sunday

Here we are again.
Another Sunday on the hunt.

So, I was thinking last night, and I can't help but feel like Lucy Pevensie. She wanted to go back to Narnia more than anything else, even though she knew that it wasn't the same. She knew that the people she knew and loved were gone, but it was still home.

That's how I feel.

I know that it's all different, and some of the people I love are gone, and I don't even know if I could go back now, but it's home. It's where I'm comfortable.

It's where I feel safe.

So, there's my thoughts for the day.

"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis

                    -SarahCate

Summer, Summer

This is getting sorta old, wandering aimlessly, is it empty streets or empty me? - The Almost


No, really. I just want a church home already. This is getting old. It was fun at first...
Who am I trying to fool? It was never really fun.
Leaving behind friends is never fun...
But since we've gone, I've gotten better insight into what is going on at our old home. It's bad, really bad.
And I know that it's good we left. I'm kinda glad we left.
I'm kinda glad I'm gone.
But I just want a new home.
I just want a place where I can be accepted and want to know the people and learn about God. That's what church should be.
Then why is it so hard to find a new home?

We might try out a Saturday service at a church next week. I leave for Band Camp a week from today.

God, I'm trusting that you have a church in mind for us. Why can't we find it???

                                                                        -SarahCate

Here We Go Again...

Heading out to my Grandpa's church again today. They have a new pastor and want us to check him out.

Just to check him out.

But hey, I get to hang with my grandparents, and they're awesome.

So, here goes. Time to put on my smiley face again.

             -SarahCate:D

Getting Better

I'm getting better.
No, I wasn't sick. I mean I think I'm starting to get over the hurt.
Don't get me wrong, it still hurts. BAD. But I think I'm starting to heal.
I just need a lot of prayer, guys. If you're reading this, can you pray for me?

We're going to another church tonight. I think it'll be cool, I've met their youth pastor before.
(And we're taking an Ikea trip beforehand!!!)

Nothing can go wrong when Ikea's in the equation, right??

                                               -SarahCate

Familiar Faces

Today we went to the church whose youth group I went to camp with last summer.
Did that make sense?
Our old youth pastor had a connection at that church (Actually, he and his wife have a connection at what seems like every church) so our youth groups went to summer camp together.

After a month, it was such a great feeling to be welcomed by name and get hugs from people I haven't seen in a year. I really wish we could go there. I felt like I was almost home.

Unfortunately, it's pretty far away.

Just when I find a place I like and could go to, it's too far away.
But Jesus gave me a reassurance this morning, via my friend Micah.
He was explaining to us that Satan has no hold over us, because Jesus has totally and completely disarmed him.
He has no hold over me, because Jesus has disarmed him.
It's such a good feeling, knowing that he can never hurt me.
It's such a good feeling, knowing that Jesus already knows where I'll end up.

                                                 -SarahCate

One Month...

Tomorrow, it will have been a month.
But wherever we go, I can't shake this feeling that I don't belong.

I feel like I need to go home. To my family.

God, help me trust that Your plan is much bigger than what I'm seeing.


   

When Everything Changes

I was raised in church.
My parents had been pastors and missionaries before I came along, so it was only logical that they would want to raise their children in church.
At the age of 3, we came to a church in the area that accepted us and loved us.
At the age of 16, I was given one week's warning before we left that same church.
It broke my heart.
That meant that I would have little over three hours to tell them all goodbye.
I would have little over three hours to spend with them for the last time.
Words really can't describe how emotional I was, but if I had to pick one, it would be emotional wreck (okay, it's two. deal.).
Our last week there was three weeks ago.
I've kept in touch with people via Facebook, including the new youth pastors. My last day was their first day.
So now, here I am.
A huge constant in my life just got flipped over, turned around, and thrown out the window.
My parents and I are on the search for a new church now.

To make matters more fun, I'm Chaplain for an entire band. 52 people, give or take a few.

This is my blog to record what happens When Everything Changes.

                                                                 -SarahCate